Skinny's what we aim for

Soooooo kinda been a while eh? Well, today was going fantastic until my mother decided to talk with me. Lately I've been feeling under the weather, and apparently I haven't learned, and told my mom. She was talking to me today and was like Lovely, have you been eating? 'Why of course I have, what are you talking about?' well you're sick and I never see you eat, so I think you not eating has caused you to become sick. 'But mom I eat all the time! You're being silly, I just have a bug.' well whatever you say, but I brought you some cake today, so please eat it.

 fjaioasufiosdafweahuiwe qio wior ueriwnu. I hadn't eaten anything all day. Chocolate cake. Chocolate. I only ate half though. But still! ugh. There was no way of avoiding it right? ughggioudguha. Anyways. I plan on not eating, ever, so she can suck it.

So my first love A has decided to become my friend again! I still love him, and I think he still has feelings for me too. But my mom really never wants us to be together ever again. : ( She thinks he's gay. But he's only bi. Ugh it's all really fucked up. She just doesn't want to see me get hurt again. ugh.

My ex best friend C started talking to me again also. Maybe she will finally forgive me! I really hope so, I miss her. But Skinny will always be my number one. I love her so much, she's just so freaking amazing.

All I can think about is not eating tomorrow, and seeing how long I can go without eating and food food food! Hahahahah I love it though. It's better than thinking about like death right?

Stay thin! WE can WIN!!

~Lovely

Well F me sideways

What a horrible food filled day. I really truely didn't want to post today, but I just want to get this day down so I can forget about it and move on. So yes, I ate a shit load today. I feel horrible. But the only thing making me okay right now is knowing that tomorrow I won't eat, and I'll be hungry. I love being hungry.

The only good thing about today was that I got to see my wonderful family. I love my little cousins. But it was weird because my parents recently got divorced, so I didn't eat dinner with my dad like I have for my whole life. It was kind of depressing. But I got to see him after dinner. It just wasn't the same.

I'm through with boys for a while now. A, my first love, hates me. He hates me, and it makes me cry. I miss him so much it actually hurts. It hurts even thinking about it. Ouch.

Skinny and I are decorating her house tomorrow, for Christmas. I'm really excited because I get to meet her sisters! Also I love Christmas, so that's good too. I've decided to set a goal for myself. By January 29th I want to meet my goal weight of 100 pounds. (Actually 99, but Skinny wants me to shoot for 100) but yes, that gives me about 2 months to get there, I think I can do it. All I've got to do is quit eating, no big deal ha. I seriously think I can do it though.

Well I hope everyone elses Turkey days went better than mine.

Stay beautiful and strong!
~Lovely