old friends new habits

I have to eat tomorrow. A lot probably. I'm going to hang out with my friend, and she wants to go see a movie, and movies mean popcorn. Then later that night I'm going out to dinner with an old friend of mine. Ugh eating eating eating!! I just want school to start so I can get away without eating like all day long.
I think I'm going to be hanging out with M and P for new years. I really don't wanna babysit. Also, my brothers girlfriend came over yesterday and stayed the night, she's really awesome.
Tomorrow night Skinny and I are having a sleepover!! YAY!!! I miss her so frickin much! And we can spend the night not eating! hah.
Well I really need to get to bed. I'm gunna try and catch up on everyones posts, and comment.
stay motivated!
~Lovely

Droid

Soo I am doing this on my new droid so it'll be short and sweet. With the new trait year coming up I've decided to share with you my new years resolution. I'm only going to drink waste. It'll be hard.. But worth it. Also I'm going to get more serious about ana. I may possibly go bella.. What do you guys think about that?
I'm not going to lie, the holidays have been a bitch. I've been forced to eat a shit ton. Also, my brother is home and he always is eating, and makes me eat with him. It'd frickin annoying. I'm gong to try and fast for the next couple days. Then I'll weigh myself on new years, and track my progress from there. Oh for my resolution, I'm allowed to have coffee once a week.
Have any of you seen black swan? It's an amazing thinsporation. Also it's a great movie. You should go see it.
I hope all of your holidays went better than mine did.
Love you all!
~ Lovely

Yay!!

Finally my dad fixed the wifi!! Sorry I didn't post, didn't want to risk it on the home computer.
Soooo progress? I've kinda given up on the ABC diet. I just like to fast. And every time I eat, I've been purging. I don't know how to feel about it. Skinny thinks it's gross. But I like to know that no matter how much I screw up I can help fix it. I also like knowing all that food is coming out of me.. idk I'm weird. It's so hard to fast during the Christmas season. Ugh, for example I have a Christmas party tonight where I'm going to be expected to eat lots. But I'm going to try and refrain. Also, my brother is kinda chubby, so he wants to go to the gym everyday when he's home, I told him I'd go along with him : DDDD I'm excited to start working out again.
I loved catching up on all of your blogs, feels like home : ) I wish Skinny would post again!!!! She's just being lazy.
C and I have talked a lot. We decided not to date anyone in highschool. ha. Hopefully I can do that. I'm slowly but surely getting over A. It's really hard, but he's making it easy... he's being a douche. Oh! I just watched Dear John, cute movie : ) ANYWHO, I'm gunna get going, I'm caroling today. Wish me luck at the Christmas party!

Stay strong
~Lovely

this is it btw

Just thought I'd post the whole thingy, ya know, if you wanna join me : )
Ana Boot Camp
day1: 500 calories(or less)
day2: 500 calories(or less)
3:300 calories
4:400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800
32: fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: fast

rinse and repeat? 

New

I had a snow day today!! YAAAY!
I ate about 500 cals, all in soup haha.
I also worked a lot off by going sledding and just having fun in the snow <3
I'm starting a new diet, with a friend of ana, her blog is when it begins again, very good, I recommend it.
Today and tomorrow are under 500. Then it just keeps going. I'm super excited.
Back to school tomorrow :/ ahh well, last week before break. Also I watched Up again today, loooooooooove it sooooooooo much. One of the best movies ever, along with Finding Nemo and Lion King. I'm a disney kid fo sho.

Hope all is well. Love love love you all all all.
~Lovely

I do believe I have been changed for the better

I saw Wicked today.

Changed my life. Amazing, simply amazing.
Other than that I have no news... well A (my first love.. that I still love) and I talked for 40 minutes today about Wicked, he loves musicals... he's bi ha. But he knows I've been dying to see it, and he's seen it, so we talked about that and school for a bit. It was really nice.

Hopefully will eat under 500 cals tomorrow.

Hope everyone is doing well!
~Lovely

Baby it's cold outside

I love the cold <3
Intake was around 500, sadly.
I'm going to exercise all night, I don't feel like sleeping. : )
I love having new followers. I love old followers too.
Today was my last day of counseling, we both cried. I'll miss her, but I can do this on my own now. She doesn't know about Ana... but oh well.
Today was just an amazing day! I have loads of energy I need to rid from my system. So off I go!
Keep on smiling!
~Lovely

Blah days

Total calorie intake for the day? 409. Feeling pretty good about it, but I want to be in at least the 300's tomorrow. I got an application for my favorite coffee shop today. I turned it in and I guess they're hiring, so fingers crossed!

And if I work there that means I can skip meals for work, and have free drinks!! Yay! I love coffee. And I love the feeling I get there. So peaceful and accepting.

Hopefully tomorrow I'll have more exciting things to write about.

Stay thin!
~Lovely

No one mourns the fat.

I had to eat dinner... chinese. Ugh, if I had known that, I wouldn't have eaten 259 calories worth of before stuff. But oh well. Tomorrows a new day, I'll do better.

I'm wearing a skirt tomorrow!! Wish me luck hah.

I love you all so much, so stay skinny for me!!
~Lovely

Restricted

Hello all! It's been a while eh? Well I'm back, with a more realistic view on ana. I've decided I can't just not eat then binge.. not eat then  binge. I can't do it, it's not working whatsoever. Skinny and I have decided to give restricting a go. Today I only ate 405 calories. As the days go on, we're going to try and eat under 500 this week, and less and less. I personally want to eat less than 405 tomorrow, then less than that the next day, and so on.

Today I ate:
A glass of sunny d- 75 cals
2 candy canes- 220 cals
A piece of toast with a tablespoon of jam-110 cals

I have to admit I really enjoyed the toast. Tomorrow I plan on eating an egg-75 cals, a cup of grapes-64 cals, and sadly my dad is making chicken noodle soup, so a cup of that- around 80. That would put my total around 219... so I probably will have like 2 cups of grapes or something. I need it to be a little higher, so I have somewhere to go. NO MORE CANDY CANES!!!  I'm such a loser when it comes to sweets. ugh.

I wrote my ex bff C a note today, hopefully she finally forgives me. Also I'm talking to A a bit more. I've decided to show him I love him by not liking or dating anyone else.. ever. Ha. Quite a plan right? I just really want him back. He was the one. Skinny is doing really well, her boyfriend is her new thinspo.

Remember P? And how she was ana.. Well I found out today that she still is.. but I'm not going to tell her I am.. Cuz Skinny doesn't want me to.

YAYY CHRISTMAS SEASON!! I love/hate the holidays. I only don't like them because people expect me to eat.
Stay strong and skinny and adorable!!
~Lovely

Mommy yaaaay

It's my mamma's birthday : ))) And it snowed!!!! It was so beautiful, and peaceful, I loved it so much. My mom is probably the most amazing person I've ever met. My parents are getting divorced, and she is so strong and amazing. Sorry I just super love her. ha.

So I didn't eat at all until dinner, I had to eat with my mom, which I'm okay with because it's her birthday, and she deserves to eat with someone, and if that means that I have to hate how I look afterwards, so be it, because she needs it. We had pizza, it was fun, because after we ate we both felt really fat, then we decorated the house for Christmas. I just love little moments like that when you just really love your family.

Things just seem to be falling into place lately, I really love it. It's about time really. *Sigh* I'm just happy.

With this happiness, there comes fear that it will all fade away though. I don't like that part. Like Charlie Brown said "Charlie Brown: I think I’m afraid to be happy.

Lucy: How can you be afraid to be happy?

Charlie Brown: Because whenever you get too happy, something bad always happens."

Let's just hope nothing bad happens. 

You guys are gorgeous. 
~Lovely